Journey to Suzanne: What I Want to do About Forever ♥

So I decided to grow a pair recently haha.

After trying to avoid being in public to avoid the dreaded "What are you doing here? You're not in school?" from people that know my parents.

NO I didn't go to school and I DON'T CARE.

I am so happy that I never went. I hated my program before I even went. The week before everyone moved into school (this would have been me) it hit me what I wanted to do with my life. ♥

Isn't that sad? It took me SO long to open up & I almost fucked up.

I want to go to school for film. I remember when I was younger I wanted to be a director for the longest time. So many adults rolled their eyes at me- it was so hard to say it confidently anymore. After that I started changing my mind & getting caught up in the wrong things.

But this is it. I WISH I could study film in the U.S. but we shall see.

I would LOVE to make music videos but I would also love to make films too.

I've always wanted to make movies ♥

I haven't really told anyone and I don't really want to until I make it.... or I'm studying it. People are so judgemental if you want to do something creative for a living. This would probably be a good time for me to mention that my mother is an artist. Artist as in... she paints and people will buy it. If you drove through the town I am from and saw all of the paintings on the buildings or inside some- those paintings were done by my mom :)

She also teaches classes too! With a mother thats an artist I have seen first hand that a lot of people don't really know art. Yes, everyone's idea of art is different. What I'm trying to say is sometimes people don't appreciate it. We live in a world where everything needs to be clean cut perfect and thats a flaw. So when you set out to break the mould or be and do something creative people look at you through judgemental eyes.

Fuck those miserable people.